Do we all reach such troughs in life? Deep down, I already know the answer to that question, but the surface man wants to deny its truth; to weed myself out of reality in hopes that my situation would be more dramatic and meriting of sympathy. If we didn't notice the faults in our lives, in ourselves, there would be little inspiration for change. This too shall pass, my friend.
How drastic has been my realization of the state of my life. And I think that only a series of revelations such as this could help me so specifically to see where and how to rearrange things. But change can be hard; I think I have wrongly assumed that I could make some minor changes and everything would automatically fall back into place. Such is often my assumption, but each time I come to realize that my mentally needs to change as well. Actions are fruits; changing them can be quite simple, but rarely sustainable. It is the mind and spirit where the true change needs to take place: motivations, decisions, and opinions.
